The Fight of My Life

Yesterday I was musing on Fred Hammond’s “You are the Living Word”, “Lord Your Grace”, “No Weapon”… last night (while struggling to come up with a concept to describe an upcoming rally/outreach sponsored by our youth ministry) I heard the first cut on Kirk Franklin’s latest CD, Fight of My Life. If ever there was a title that applied to me… that was it! (no pun intended)

I have listened to it on Youtube at least twelve times already and don’t intend to stop anytime soon. Why? It speaks to me.

I have gotten so tired that I wanted to give up. When due to choices of my own or outside influences my personal world got crazy, I would vacation at Hotel Denial until my survivor genes kicked in. I would and have fought skirmish after skirmish in my life time: abuse, rape, poverty, pornography, low self-esteem, bipolar disorder or manic depression, abandonment and the list could go on and on. Most folks would classify them as battles, however, I consider them just skirmishes. The biggest fight of my life… the one battle that I conquer… or so I think, then it comes back and keeps coming back, over and over is lack of faith.

What? Shocked? I do talk a good game, don’t I? However, I am so clear that God is all powerful and able to do abundantly above all that I wish, desire and need… yet I walk around in lack, ill health, mentally deficient when the Doctor of all doctors has already declared that by His stripes I am healed.

It is a proven fact that what we believe, truly believe… we act upon. So it stands to reason that some small part of me, some unsurrendered portion is poisoning the rest of me and I am allowing it to do so in that I remain half or three quarter surrendered. Well… as the song title says… I’m making a declaration. I’m tired of perpetuating the same cycles… this is it!

I’m standing up and fighting for the next level, I’m fighting my doubt, I’m fighting myself! I’m fighting that urge to constantly be in a struggle. Yes, there were times when I had to struggle, however, now there’s no need to struggle, I need to stop sabotaging myself and my blessings and be courageous enough to stand up and fight and move past the habitual struggle mode to the peace that passeth all understanding mode. So… there ya have it… this is it!

So again I ask, what is the fight of your life? What is the one battle that you conquer… or so you think, then it comes back and keeps coming back, over and over?

Declaration (This is it!) ~ Kirk Franklin
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZJUY_FM_q3Q

Check it out, ya’ll
(There’ve been times in my life)
I’m tired and I wanna give up
(I’ve been wondering why)
Why is the world gettin’ so crazy?
(Still, somehow I believe)
I’ve come too far to die now
(I always survive)
If you’re a survivor, get up!
Let’s get it!

Gonna cry now, go ahead and get it out of my system
I know I hurt now, but soon I gotta get back to livin’
Can’t be here next year, givin’ you these same tears
I hope you enjoyed it, ’cause it’s the last time you will take a piece of me

I start right now, I don’t know how I’m gonna get thru it
I know right now, I pray somehow ’cause I can’t do it
I can’t keep livin’ like this, there’s gotta be more than this
Jesus, I’m ready, I’m ready for what you have for me

Chorus
(Are you gonna wait for a sign?)
Are you ready for your miracle
God’s people it’s time to (stand up and fight)
Let’s get it, let’s get it (This is it!)
You can’t mess with my mind anymore (This is it!)
I’m smarter, see I’ve been here before (This is it!)
It’s time today, I’m not afraid anymore (This is it!)
Yes, I believe, if you believe, help me say (This is it!)

I’m a child of the King baby, look at somebody and tell ‘em’ (This is it!)

I look back now, I look at how you tried to break me
To take my life, my peace of mind and drive me crazy
My self esteem, my dreams, my destiny
So, God allowed it, because He knew He had big plans for me (Hallelujah!)

It’s your grace, I know today it’s how I made it (Thank You, Jesus)
When I thought that it was over’ (Lord, have mercy)

Chorus

Everybody that’s been holdin’ you down, look at ‘em and tell ‘em’This is it!
I feel my help coming on right now, ya’all’

You think that maybe it’s over’(You’re life ain’t over)
Not unless you want it to be

(Are you gonna wait for a sign?) your miracle
(stand up and fight)

Rap
This is it ya’ll, this is it ya’ll
You’ve been waitin’ and debating , here it is, ya’ll
All your stuff from your past, shake it off ya’ll
Though they said you wouldn’t last, but who is ya’ll?
Want your dreams back? Let’s get it!
Your peace of mind back? Let’s get it!
Want your family back? Let’s get it!
Are you ready? Let’s get it! (This is it!)
I speak against everything that comes to destroy the purpose in your life (This is it!)
Worrying about your finances, your future, when you can’t even sleep at night (This is it!)
I speak against depression and fear, every attack from the enemy (This is it!)
This is your day, the Lord made it baby! God has set you free! (This is it!)

You can’t mess with my mind anymore (This is it!)
I’m smarter, see I’ve been here before (This is it!)
It’s time today, I’m not afraid anymore (This is it!)
I wanna hear ya’ll sing this with your boy!
Every body say (This is it!)

You can’t mess with my mind anymore (This is it!)
I’m smarter, see I’ve been here before (This is it!)
It’s time today, I’m not afraid anymore(This is it!)
Yes, I believe, if you believe, help me say (This is it!)

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